I had a random thought while running today. I have been going through some trials within the past few years. During that time, I’m ashamed to say that I haven’t always faced them with grace, peace, and trust. I have had moments when I’ve questioned God and haven’t liked what He is doing. I don’t know if I was necessarily angry with Him or not, but I can only imagine that I was.
I was reflecting on the fact that I haven’t handled these trials the way that I wish that I had of — with grace, peace, and trust. I was thinking about how faithful God has been to me to carry me through, to strengthen me, and to encourage my heart when I needed it most. I guess I was feeling a bit sad knowing that I had perhaps disappointed the heart of God, grieving Him by not trusting in Him and even questioning His will concerning loved ones in my life.
As I was thinking about all of this, a thought came to mind. As a mom, I have had my own children not understand why I am doing things — or not doing things — the way they wanted me to do. They didn’t like it. I know they didn’t like it because they told me so. When they hurled the most hurtful thing a mom could hear from her child, “I hate you!!”I had to explain that I was sorry that they felt that way, but I still loved them. If, I, being human, can love my child even when they question me or when they hurl hurtful words at me, how much more can our Heavenly Father, who is perfect and wonderful in every way, love us unconditionally?
Romans 8:Romans 8:35-39 ESV
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written,
“For your sake we are being killed all the day long;
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.